there’s no success and failure in my dictionary. only how you define yourself and surpass previous yourself. everyone has their own top moments, my climax could be in 2017-2021.

I was determined and creative and productive then. meanwhile, I have changed ever since then too.

had lived abroad and started to read loads of articles and learned how to self-travel and truly did it. likewise, my thoughts and perspectives have changed since then and they have almost shaped my entire life up till now. I never regret and am grateful for what I have done and literally come a long way but what I got back to myself is - have extreme loneliness bit by bit and couldn’t feel connected with everyone and no one can let me get my chest out.

I can’t find who can let me split things up. I’m empty and zoom out. I don’t know how to move forward and have no ideas what to do in the meantime. maybe what I can tell myself is “you’re not alone and I’m not alone. we’re not alone.”